I have happiness in my heart and a thorn in my soul

Repressed memories

on June 12, 2013

I’ve been writing a lot of poetry lately, i’ve found it quite cathartic to analyze issues and things that have happened that i have previously tried to avoid thinking about as it hurt to do so. but writing about it seems to take it’s power away, shining a light on a problem and bringing it out of the darkness seems to bring some kind of healing.

For years I have effectively ‘known’ about some unpleasant things that happened when i was between the ages of 7-9, but i have kept them hidden deep down inside, like a monster hiding in the darkest caverns of my subconscious.

Just now i wrote a poem about the first night it occurred. And i thought airing the monster would bring a sense of relief. But i’m feeling numb and restless, is this something common?

I have been dealing with things repressed to a certain extent, but this was way way deep down, and now it’s been confronted, i just feel kind of empty.

I’m sure others have drudged up repressed memories, is this something common or am i the exception to the rule? should i be crying or asking why?

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